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waiting

Well, it’s Tuesday. Yesterday was a rainy and wonderful and today is sunny and wonderful. That’s spring for you. I wouldn’t be surprised if it started snowing lol. I’m just not excited for the headache that i know i’m going to have today. I only started having seasonal allergies a couple years ago. Except for lilacs, i’ve always been allergic to lilacs. Of course there’s a nice big lilac bush right outside the door at my work. and the always open kitchen window. And allergy headaches don’t play nicely with migraines. Nothing plays nicely in my head, everything will trigger a migraine. Weather, food, doing too much, not doing enough.I hope i don’t get a migraine! i want to enjoy this beautiful day.

My love has been having headaches too. She’s 8/9 DPO. Headaches, Lower back ache, sore boobs, I don’t know what any of that means. I’m going to try very hard to not look anything up, to not think about any of it. But every time she says anything i think OOOH!!!! And then i wonder if it’s just wishful thinking. Her temp had a dip today. Which could just be a dip, or could be an implantation dip, or could be that i mentioned it to her and then her body reacted.

In like 3.5 days we’ll test. and it will either be positive or it won’t. and then over the weekend she should get her period. so even if we get a negative if she doesn’t get her period there’s still hope. And even though we’re still days from testing I’m already trying to rationalize the results.

I still don’t know if I ovulated. It’s annoying. Really really stupid annoying. Like really fucking pissing me off. Fertility Friend started me off a nice path of Oh this is going to be really easy…nice steady temps then a clear rise at ovulation and then back down for my monthly. Now my temp is bouncing all over the place, I don’t know why, I don’t sleep well, maybe that’s it. I have to disregard many of my temps because i get up too early, I fall asleep and sleep to late, I don’t get 4 hours of sleep in a row. And then the stupid opks…ugh! i can’t get a positive. I don’t want to test at work, so it’s hard to have enough time in the morning and now I’ve given up on testing at night because i fee like i’ve missed and i don’t want to waste all my tests. I should probably go online and buy a bunch of cheap tests. If I can’t get a handle of my ovulation after next month I’m going to start taking Vitex. I’m worried it will give me migraines though.

We both plan to carry. I’m older, but she happened to ovulate properly this time. I don’t care who goes when, i just hope that at some point it works out for both of us to be pregnant. I don’t know how we’re going to feel after this weekend. If she’ll want to try again right away or want/need to wait (or for how long), or if my body will wake up and i’ll be ready to try soon.

Three more days