Officially in the 2ww.
The dr was busy so the nurse did the procedure. It still hurt, but so much less than when the dr did it last time!
I told her it was going to hurt and I would probably cry and she kept reassuring that the nurses are generally gentler than the dr. She was right! And I didn’t cry, yay.
I tried to really focus on my breathing and thinking positive affirmations. I’ve never done that before, I don’t meditate or do yoga or anything, but it felt right to really focus as much positive energy as I could.
Then I lay there upside down sending Snapchats to my wife for when she gets off of work. It was less sad that she wasn’t there than I thought it would be. Just don’t tell her that lol
Over 12 hours later now my body feels wrecked. I’m so sore and Crampy and exhausted and my v hurts and I slept about 4 hours last night. But the nurse was seriously raving about my cervical mucous and how perfect everything was for this cycle, so I’m happy about that. From a blizzard to thinking I had no follies and had to sit this cycle out, I think I got the best possible ending.
Even though the pain was less than last IUI, the ptsd triggering thoughts are still there. I don’t know how often I can do this to myself. Does this happen to other people? It’s not something that I imagine is talked about very often. Wouldn’t it be delightful to just get pregnant and not have to go through this? 🙂 I think that’s a good plan!